Thursday, December 04, 2003
Christmas Cards
Well, I received my first Christmas card in the mail today. What the fuck? It's the freakin 4th of December. Who is that organized or anal about cards to have them sent out this early. I haven't sent cards out in a couple of years. My wife was the one who did that. So, the last couple of years, I just haven't felt like sending cards. Maybe this year.
Home Decorating
Tomorrow, Rachel and I are going to start decorating the house for Christmas. I'm going to try and let her make most of the decisions about how to decorate. She loves putting things out, so I'm going to let her. Not planning on playing any carols while we do this, but, maybe I'll play some of the "cracked" carols such as "Grandma got run over by a reindeer".
Accounting Class
In class today, our instructor gave us all a status sheet letting us know what our current average was and our total points. It takes 450 points to get an A in the class. So far, I have 418. That means all I have to do is get a 32 or better on my final test to get an A. The problem is, I currently have an average of 104.8 (thanks to extra credit points). So, the egotistical part of me says I need to get a high 90 score on the test to keep my average about 100. I'm not going to bother figuring out what the lowest score I could get is. I'm just going to try and do the best I can.
How much is that doggie in the window?
Okay, I'm not buying a dog. But, I am in the process of trying to determine whether I need to purchase new bowling shoes (dog? bowling shoes? what?). The problem is, the pair that is being recommended to me as an equivalent or better than the worn out pair I have cost $157. For bowling shoes? Damn, that's a lot of money. Of course, what price does not having to rent shoes bring? I think I'm going to have to seriously consider just how bad I need new "quality" shoes before I even think of forking over that type of money.
Well, I received my first Christmas card in the mail today. What the fuck? It's the freakin 4th of December. Who is that organized or anal about cards to have them sent out this early. I haven't sent cards out in a couple of years. My wife was the one who did that. So, the last couple of years, I just haven't felt like sending cards. Maybe this year.
Home Decorating
Tomorrow, Rachel and I are going to start decorating the house for Christmas. I'm going to try and let her make most of the decisions about how to decorate. She loves putting things out, so I'm going to let her. Not planning on playing any carols while we do this, but, maybe I'll play some of the "cracked" carols such as "Grandma got run over by a reindeer".
Accounting Class
In class today, our instructor gave us all a status sheet letting us know what our current average was and our total points. It takes 450 points to get an A in the class. So far, I have 418. That means all I have to do is get a 32 or better on my final test to get an A. The problem is, I currently have an average of 104.8 (thanks to extra credit points). So, the egotistical part of me says I need to get a high 90 score on the test to keep my average about 100. I'm not going to bother figuring out what the lowest score I could get is. I'm just going to try and do the best I can.
How much is that doggie in the window?
Okay, I'm not buying a dog. But, I am in the process of trying to determine whether I need to purchase new bowling shoes (dog? bowling shoes? what?). The problem is, the pair that is being recommended to me as an equivalent or better than the worn out pair I have cost $157. For bowling shoes? Damn, that's a lot of money. Of course, what price does not having to rent shoes bring? I think I'm going to have to seriously consider just how bad I need new "quality" shoes before I even think of forking over that type of money.
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
Thought of the Day
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines.
So much I'd like to do or accomplish, but I just can't find a starting point. It seems that I have the desire to do things, but don't know where to start. Each project I come up with seems to have a prerequisite. But, even those have things that have to be done before hand. Somehow, I need to learn how to pick one thing and start on that. Focus seems to be something I need to work on.
By the way! The first line of this post is a lyric from the song Time by Pink Floyd. So, if it seemed familiar, that's why.
Social Calendars
Once again, my 9 year old daughter has a more active social life than I do. I am having trouble keeping up with everything she has going on. From play days to birthday partys, from church to sleep-overs, she is just constantly going. Maybe that was the strangest thing that I felt while she was at my Dad's place, I wasn't driving her from one event to the next. Oh well, better she's active than a wall flower. Oh, one other thing, right now the personal phone usage is about 60/40 in my favor. I figure I have a year or two at best before that swings the other way.
Happy Birthday
Today is my son's (from a previous marriage) 21st birthday. I wish I had the chance to talk to him, but thanks to his mother and his medical condition, this is the closest I can come. One of these days I'll explain the whole situation. Suffice it to say for now that it's nowhere as close as the relationship with Rachel.
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines.
So much I'd like to do or accomplish, but I just can't find a starting point. It seems that I have the desire to do things, but don't know where to start. Each project I come up with seems to have a prerequisite. But, even those have things that have to be done before hand. Somehow, I need to learn how to pick one thing and start on that. Focus seems to be something I need to work on.
By the way! The first line of this post is a lyric from the song Time by Pink Floyd. So, if it seemed familiar, that's why.
Social Calendars
Once again, my 9 year old daughter has a more active social life than I do. I am having trouble keeping up with everything she has going on. From play days to birthday partys, from church to sleep-overs, she is just constantly going. Maybe that was the strangest thing that I felt while she was at my Dad's place, I wasn't driving her from one event to the next. Oh well, better she's active than a wall flower. Oh, one other thing, right now the personal phone usage is about 60/40 in my favor. I figure I have a year or two at best before that swings the other way.
Happy Birthday
Today is my son's (from a previous marriage) 21st birthday. I wish I had the chance to talk to him, but thanks to his mother and his medical condition, this is the closest I can come. One of these days I'll explain the whole situation. Suffice it to say for now that it's nowhere as close as the relationship with Rachel.
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
I'm back among the living
Should anyone care, I'm back. Sorry about the absence, but I was hit with a mild case of flu that's been running around here in Colorado. I say mild since some people here have died from it. So, I feel lucky to have only been achy, feverish, chilled, sore, tired, etc... But, I finally feel like I'm almost back to normal. One more day or two and I should be rid of all the symptoms. At least I can finally do most of my normal activity without having to take a two hour break for every one hour I do something.
Thanksgiving and Christmas
My daughter Rachel spent Thanksgiving with the Oldcatman and other members of the family. I'm glad she was able to enjoy the holiday even when I didn't care about it (and later turned up sick that day). She had a good time with the animals, my aunt, cousin, and of course Grandpa. Course, I'm now hearing about all the chickens, cats, dog, and horses and their daily activities, but I'm just happy she had a good time.
Now, Christmas is coming up. I've always enjoyed Christmas. Guess it's the kid in me. Hey! I'm greedy, I'll admit it. I love getting presents. There is also a part of me that really likes the fact that for one brief period of time, people will think of others. Odd thing to make a conservative happy, but I do like hanging out at the mall and watching people scurry and run around. I love watching little kids talk to Santa and tell him their wants. I don't care for the Carols, but I can live through it.
Number one thing I enjoy the most is the look in Rachel's eye's when she thinks about presents, Santa, Christmas dinner, and all of that. The look of expectation and joy is just so wonderful, it can cheer even the gloomiest of days. She's the typical kid wanting anything and everything, but it's wonderful that she is happy with whatever she gets. Plus, she's getting old enough to want to make decisions about decorating the house and tree. To watch her decide what ornaments and decorations should be used this year is just heart warming.
Miscellaneous
On the housing front - We didn't get our offer accepted on the house we looked at. The sellers decided to go with the first offer. Oh well, at least now I've got my feet wet and have things prepared to move forward.
Accounting class - Just a week and a half left. If I've done my math right, all I have to do is get a 40 something or better on the final test (out of 100) to get an A. Makes me feel good to know that I'm doing well, must be my competitive nature.
Dating situation - Had to throw in something for a laugh. There is no dating going on here. Any one know a nice lady?
Bowling - Still plugging along. I've got a combined 195 plus average between the two leagues, tournaments, and subbing for other people. More than my concerns about my average, I am just really having fun this year. In both my leagues, I have people I enjoy talking, joking, and competing with. People actually seem to search me out to talk to and spend time with. It really makes me feel good to think that someone sees me and wants to spend a few moments with me. Reminds me that I may get down on myself, but that's my own emotion and is not shared by everyone. Makes me look inward and remember that even on a bad day, I still have a lot to offer.
As you can tell from some of my comments today, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. What I came up with is that I'm human. I have a lot of good qualities, I struggle with my emotions, I'm competitive, and I probably have as many people who like me as those who don't. The important thing is that I like myself. I would like to be a better person (who wouldn't), but as long as I'm okay with me and Rachel loves me, what else do I need? The answer is nothing. I simply have to remember to do things that help me (and Rachel) and not stress on what others think. Wish me luck!
Should anyone care, I'm back. Sorry about the absence, but I was hit with a mild case of flu that's been running around here in Colorado. I say mild since some people here have died from it. So, I feel lucky to have only been achy, feverish, chilled, sore, tired, etc... But, I finally feel like I'm almost back to normal. One more day or two and I should be rid of all the symptoms. At least I can finally do most of my normal activity without having to take a two hour break for every one hour I do something.
Thanksgiving and Christmas
My daughter Rachel spent Thanksgiving with the Oldcatman and other members of the family. I'm glad she was able to enjoy the holiday even when I didn't care about it (and later turned up sick that day). She had a good time with the animals, my aunt, cousin, and of course Grandpa. Course, I'm now hearing about all the chickens, cats, dog, and horses and their daily activities, but I'm just happy she had a good time.
Now, Christmas is coming up. I've always enjoyed Christmas. Guess it's the kid in me. Hey! I'm greedy, I'll admit it. I love getting presents. There is also a part of me that really likes the fact that for one brief period of time, people will think of others. Odd thing to make a conservative happy, but I do like hanging out at the mall and watching people scurry and run around. I love watching little kids talk to Santa and tell him their wants. I don't care for the Carols, but I can live through it.
Number one thing I enjoy the most is the look in Rachel's eye's when she thinks about presents, Santa, Christmas dinner, and all of that. The look of expectation and joy is just so wonderful, it can cheer even the gloomiest of days. She's the typical kid wanting anything and everything, but it's wonderful that she is happy with whatever she gets. Plus, she's getting old enough to want to make decisions about decorating the house and tree. To watch her decide what ornaments and decorations should be used this year is just heart warming.
Miscellaneous
On the housing front - We didn't get our offer accepted on the house we looked at. The sellers decided to go with the first offer. Oh well, at least now I've got my feet wet and have things prepared to move forward.
Accounting class - Just a week and a half left. If I've done my math right, all I have to do is get a 40 something or better on the final test (out of 100) to get an A. Makes me feel good to know that I'm doing well, must be my competitive nature.
Dating situation - Had to throw in something for a laugh. There is no dating going on here. Any one know a nice lady?
Bowling - Still plugging along. I've got a combined 195 plus average between the two leagues, tournaments, and subbing for other people. More than my concerns about my average, I am just really having fun this year. In both my leagues, I have people I enjoy talking, joking, and competing with. People actually seem to search me out to talk to and spend time with. It really makes me feel good to think that someone sees me and wants to spend a few moments with me. Reminds me that I may get down on myself, but that's my own emotion and is not shared by everyone. Makes me look inward and remember that even on a bad day, I still have a lot to offer.
As you can tell from some of my comments today, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. What I came up with is that I'm human. I have a lot of good qualities, I struggle with my emotions, I'm competitive, and I probably have as many people who like me as those who don't. The important thing is that I like myself. I would like to be a better person (who wouldn't), but as long as I'm okay with me and Rachel loves me, what else do I need? The answer is nothing. I simply have to remember to do things that help me (and Rachel) and not stress on what others think. Wish me luck!
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